Friday, November 14, 2008

For Real?

I'm crying like a baby at my desk - could this be it? All of this pain and all of these deaths that I think about EVERY DAY because the whole reason I'm here is because I care about this. I never dreamed HIV might be cured. I thought everyone who does stuff that puts them at risk would just die off and that's how it would become controlled. I'm taking back every snarky thing I've said about scientists!

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB122602394113507555.html

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Sweet Home Chicago

Why do I love Obama more now that he's been elected? I grumbled as I voted for him, reminding everyone who asked about his stupid plan to continue Bush's faith-based social services programs. How he called the labor movement a special interest group (I was eating when I heard that and I choked - Obama almost killed me!). How he was such a better candidate when Hillary was still running and that, as a socialist, I'm worried that on Super Tuesday he was playing me for a fool (I saw through rich-white-guy Edwards, why didn't I see through him?).

But now? The sound of his name makes my heart go pitter-pat. I guess it's because I'm seeing him bring out such a change in my fellow Americans. Everyone's so excited and child-like (in a good way). It's as though collectively our brown eyes have been turned blue. I haven't been proud of my country in YEARS. Have I ever been proud? Come to think of it, I remember carrying my shame with me to Ireland in 1995, during the Clinton years. And then came the tragedy of Bush. So...I guess no.

But one day of President-elect Obama has done more for the Malawians I know than all of my time here to really drive home the point that Africans are good, just as good as Americans (or, more accurately, how good they believe Americans to be). People are running around here, literally taking victory laps! They are so excited - how can I maintain my snarky veneer in the face of that?

Is it a collective high? Should I be suspicious rather than giddy?

Some of my friends in the U.S. have been really sad lately, and Obama's election has made them smile for the first time in a while. That alone is enough for me.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

the darker days of me and him

pj harvey has gotten me over all of the boyfriends and passive-aggressive minimalists that have needed getting-over since I turned 20. And, always there for me, she's singing the soundtrack to my month of September.

Promises, promises
I'm feeling burned
You taught me a lesson
I didn't want to learn

Why did I come here?
Please tell me again
Why did you ask me?
Don't say you forget

I long for, I long for
I long for my home
I long for a land where
No man was ever known

With no neurosis
No psychosis
No psychoanalysis
And no sadness

I'll pick up the pieces
I'll carry on somehow
Tape the broken parts together
And limp this love around

Limp this love around

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Theroux

I had known that the Peace Corps was kicked out of Malawi for a while b/c a volunteer made agogo anga mad, but didn't know it was Paul Theroux! What a claim to fame!

I've found this nice opinion piece he's written into the New York Times. It engages in one of my favorite pastimes: Bono-bashing.

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/12/15/opinion

On my way

I had my own entire row on the flight to London! I don't understand how BA can send such underbooked flights...but not complaining. I love traveling on European airlines - so much nicer. They gave me socks, a toothbrush, yummy vegetarian food and all the coffee I could drink. Lovely.

I'm in the Yotel in Heathrow, cooling my heels for the 14 hour layover before my Nairobi-bound flight.

Yotel is the Ikea of hotels - I love it! I'm wedged into a tiny room. There's not enough space for yoga, but I've got a bed and a shower. And free Internet. Heaven! I think Yotels will soon be everywhere.